Closure

I recently was able to let some feelings go for some people that I love. A few weeks back I was able to say good bye to my grandma properly. I was able to get back into her house. I hadn't been able to get in since the day of her funeral. I know my Grandma is in a better place but it took a huge toll on my life to have to let her go. May 20, 2009 was a tough day for me. That night we didn't think she was going to make it through the night, so I got called at around 2pm that day that I should proabaly come to Rochester. So I took care of my dog and then headed out knowing that my grandma was proabaly not going to make it. I got there at around 3 3:30pm being that traffic wasn't being friendly. I stayed there until 11pm that night and throughout the night I had broke down twice. For the week leading up to her death I had undergone a lot with nightmares at night about what had happened and overall just my spitual look at things. May 28, 2009, the day had started out normally, I was sitting down in my living room just relaxing when my mom calls me wondering if my dad had called the house. I had a feeling that something was up and knowing my luck my dad walks in about 10 minutes after I hung up with my mom. His words were, "Ryan, this is hard for me to say but, your grandma passed away." I was supposed to work that night but lucky for me, I had really nice managers and I went in and told them that grandma passed away and that I wouldn't be able to come in and I'll let you know of any plans that get made today.

I spent the day over in Rochester with my family and got the plans made. They made me and my aunt the musicians at the funeral. Me and my aunt, Ann, played "Seek Ye First thy kingdom of God" as a prelude that day.

Overall, I'm happy that I was happy that I could let her go properly. Rest in Peace Grandma, I love you and miss you very much. I know that you still look down on me. I'll never forget your sense of humor when ever I came to visit. One thing that will stick is how you teached a lot of people as well as me to be a better person and musician. Thanks for the memories while you were here and I know I'll always remain your little grandson when we meet again. R.I.P. Louise Ann Heydon