How lucky I am

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and to this day I'm lucky to have the people I have in my life. I'm consider myself lucky that I still have a grandparent in my life. For those who don't know from my other posts my dad's mom died back in 2009 and she was the only grandparent on that side of the family I new. My grandpa Heydon died 11 years before I was born and my mom was only a sophomore in high school when it happened and my dad wasn't much older than me when it happened.

On the Swenson side which is my mom's side, my grandpa died when I was only 15 and the same age as my mom when grandpa Morris died. I can remember the day very well. Me and my sister were just finishing getting ready for school and we were about ready to leave when our phone rang. It happened to be my mom's brother Doug. My dad first spoke to him and all of a sudden his voice was quiet, I had a feeling that something was up and my mom was on the phone and she said that she would get packed up to come home. After she hung up she broke down. It took a little while for me to accept it but I knew that the day was coming. My parents just sent us off to school and we carried on with our day. It was hard for me to tell my teachers but they would have found out somehow from someone and I would rather have it be me. During the 2 days I was in school I got all my work done so I wouldn't have to worry while I was gone. I was gone for 6 days. At that time I consider myself lucky that my teachers were willing to help me through the greiving process.

Now to the present, I only have one more grandparent left and it's my Mom's mother. I'm lucky that I've been able to spend a lot of time with her now that I live closer to her. I've been able to do a lot of traveling with her and my most recent travel was back in 2009 down to Colorado to see my extended family that I haven't seen since my grandpa's funeral. I had so much fun down there I was there a total of 8 days but I was gone from my home for 10. To tell you the truth because I was still torn about my Grandma Heydon passing away and I was also still dealing with crap from Mower county about my truck, dealing with stress from work and also trying to have a life I was at my brink of stress; if I couldn't get away from Minnesota for a mere 2 days, I can honestly say that I would be 6 feet under but I was able to get away and I came back a different person. That summer led me to a better person but after that summer I started to have some different days where I wouldn't be happy and days that I was as cheerful as a puppy. After my last year in Austin we got to go to Wisconsin for the 4th of July and I had to find out some bad news about my life and when I went in for my physical I told them about what was going on and I was told that I may have depression.

So all in all I'm just lucky and happy to have the people that I have in my life whether it be my Grandma, my aunts and uncles or even my own cousins.

Thanks for all the time that I've been able to spend with all of you. You don't know how much it means to me.